Listen. I was on hormonal birth control for years, since before I even started having sex really. I am now not and haven't been for about two months and it's getting interesting. As time moves, I lose more water weight that the hormones made my body hold but also, I get a stronger and stronger sex drive too.
Having anxiety is not ideal for that. I am still on birth control, just not hormonal (in case you can't figure that out, I have a copper iud) so I don't worry about being pregnant. That's too ordinary. I get convinced my husband doesn't find me sexy. I also don't know how to ask for sex.
My only previous sexual relationship involved an unsatisfactory man who was mentally abusive and manipulative. So naturally, I never wanted to ask him for it. But how am I supposed to swallow my anxiety and say I need something? I can't even pee in other people's houses because it foreign and anxiety said don't do it.
Those of you not struggling, congrats on doing normal things easily. But this is how my fucked brain works. It inhibits me from doing things I want and sometimes (like the peeing) need. Anxiety is a mother fucker, dudes.
I forgot the point of this. Oh, wait, yeah, what the fuck birth control? You kept me constantly bloated and made my depressive episodes so much stronger, way too strong.  Sure, I had no babies but this new, non hormone version is much better. Am I still depressed sometimes, of course, but I think much less about how I could easily end it all. People don't tell you these kinds of fuck ups. That if you're mentally unwell, it will make that worse. That's why I'm telling you. No one needs extra weight on their shoulders. Especially when you're already carrying a water buffalo.